My screaming child...

Turns out he really likes to smile- in between screaming, that is. He smiles really big at us all the time now. Then, he'll fall apart and start screaming. I think he may be bipolar. He's growing so fast. He looks like a 3 month old baby-it's kind of ridiculous. Jeebs has a theory that he likes hot wind and he may be right. I took him out on the back patio to watch the kids jump in the water and he fell asleep sitting there. I put him in his bouncy chair out there and he slept for 30 min outside. I got on my suit and played with the kids on the trampoline. It is pretty dang fun with the sprinkler underneath and all the balls. I didn't appreciate the balls all clustering around me wherever I went- reminding me of the large indention I was making as I moved around :) Ezra is full to te gills so I guess I beter do something besides sit on my large rump- and I'm out.

Baby Shower for EZE

My friends from church gave me and Ezra a cute baby shower last night. The theme was lambs- there were little lambs on the invites, banner, and cupcakes. The food was super tasty and the young women did a good job coming up with interesting :) games for us to play. Ezra got lots of diapers, wipes and cute outfits. Thanks to everybody- it was great!

hot hot hot

What do you do when it's 98 degrees outside with a heat index of 110? Make a blanket house inside of course :)
This is Ezra after he smiled- I was trying to catch it, but as soon as I got the camera, he went back to his solemn self.

Normal?

I actually made dinner last night- from scratch, not something frozen :) I made these super tasty calzones and I even made the dough myself. I stuffed them with ricotta, mozzarella and baby spinach. They were so good, I was proud of myself. I was, of course, the only one who really enjoyed them (nobody else likes ricotta cheese). Anyway, I just felt almost like my normal self. Now if I could break the sick attachment I have to my bp cuff and stop having panic attacks about having a stroke- we'd be good. I have been off bp meds for a week today and my bp has stabilized to a little higher than it used to be, but still in a normal range. I just hope it'll keep dropping and get back to what it was before all of this- blagh.

I thought Ezra was turning a corner yesterday- we actually had a little more time without screaming and he took a longer nap. But, today we woke up and he screamed and fussed the whole time I ate breakfast. He's been laying on the floor for about 20 min and he's fussing again. He eats until he can't hold anything in anymore. AGGh. Okay- he was calm yesterday and here's the picture to prove it- he chilled in his bouncey chair while I made dinner last night.

Pictures

this was my 1st attempt at taking EZ's birth announcement pictures






This is just Tates getting the baby to sleep. She sang her Chronicles of Narnia song to him and he was out :)



This is Ezra at 1 month. This is about as happy as his face gets :) Life is tough- He was 11 lbs 5 oz today at his checkup- he's gained almost 4 pounds in 3 and a half weeks.

I'm trying

I've been trying to blog for a while, but something comes up every time I sit down. I'm typing this one handed- Taylor is being a drama queen about the scrape on her elbow and Cagey is asking me a billion questions.

There is a scripture in Helaman that talks about possessions becoming slippery and after this morning I was thinking Heavenly Father is trying to teach me something. I failed to ever blog about my quick trip to the ER a couple of Sundays ago when I thought my kidneys might be failing. They weren't- but my eyes felt swollen and I felt like I had a UTI so I freaked out and went to Urgent Care- because I was only 2 weeks post-partum they sent me to the friggin' ER. I hate the ER. I've been to this ER here in New Bern more times than I have ever been to the ER in my whole entire life. Anyway- I started freaking out while I was sitting in my room alone- Jeebs was home with all the kids- and I thought my left hand was swelling so I took off my wedding rings to see if they could still come off. They could so I put them back on- well I did this 2 or 3 times and my dang finger swelled up like a sausage. It started hurting so bad- I freaked out (yet again) and had them cut my rings off. No big deal- they can be repaired, but who knows how long it will be before it gets done. Then, this morning I was sitting in the front bedroom and reached up to my left ear and my diamond earring was gone. The back was just stuck to the back of my ear, but the earring was gone. I was so sad. I started looking all over and couldn't find it anywhere- there was really no telling and finding something that small is a task in and of itself. I called my mom to see where that scripture was and she read it to me. Not quite the same thing I know, but I felt that Heavenly Father was teaching me a lesson. Just as I had almost given up hope- I walked into our bathroom and happened to look by the tub- there it was- my earring. I couldn't believe it. I'm sure I still need to do better about always looking and wishing for jewelry, shoes, clothes etc.- hey we all do right? :)

Is Latisse right for you?

Has anybody seen the commercial with Brooke Shields for Latisse? It's a prescription medicine that you put on your eyelids near your eyelashes. It's supposed to grow thicker, longer, darker eyelashes. At the end of the commercial Brooke Shields says "Ask your doctor if Latisse is right for you." Okay- are you really going to go to your doctor because your eyelashes suck? I mean, my eyelashes suuuuuuuuuuuck. They are short- thin and board straight. But, I really do not see myself ever going to my doctor and saying "Hey- look at my crappy eyelashes, do you think Latisse could be right for me?" I mean really. I'm just sayin'. Don't people have big enough problems without bothering their doctor about their knappy eyelashes? okay- that is all.

How did we get here?

In the fall of 1997 I moved to Provo, UT to start my education as a microbiology major at BYU. I still remember sitting in my first class and thinking "Wow, BYU!" It was 8 in the morning and it was Microbiology 130- there were 3 textbooks and 4 professors for the one class. Yeah, microbiology lasted a semester. I ended up married, with a 9 month old Tates and getting a BS in sociology. Jeebs started BYU in the summer of 1996 as a graphic design major- I believe. We met in May of 2001- married in December '01 and Tates came in Oct 2002. We lived in 3 different apartments in Utah. Cagey came in July '05. We didn't want to live in Utah forever so we really tried to find a job outside of Utah. When the opportunity came to move to New Bern, NC even with a large pay cut- we decided to jump on the chance to leave Utah. We were excited to be by the beach and live somewhere neither of us had ever been to or even heard of. We've been here for 2 and a half years and I have to say- I don't know how we got here :) We have 3 kids and live way across the country from where we started. After having all the experiences I've had here- I know the Lord is trying to teach me a lesson. I will never complain about where we live again. I was so down on Utah and now Utah doesn't look so bad anymore :) There isn't anything wrong with New Bern. See, I'm not complaining :) We've just had issue after issue. Anybody need a house in New Bern, NC? It's the birthplace of Pepsi :) I guess I just feel a world away from the 22 year old that was walking to ballet class with my tights hanging out of my shorts- making fashion statements- shopping at American Eagle- laying out until my skin was nearly black- eating rice and eggs- complaining about roommates- singing Dixie Chicks at the top of my lungs- running with Red- Yeah I wouldn't trade my life now for any of that, it's just weird the progression that life has taken.