Kilmeny Nicolaysen

Wednesday I decided it was time to be induced because my old friend, preeclampsia, started to creep in. They broke my water at 1 pm and started the pitocin shortly thereafter. Around 3:20 I decided to give up and take an epidural since I couldn't have a homebirth might as well numb it. But, as they were messing around getting the anesthesiologist I realized I needed to push. My midwife was in the room and wanted to check to make sure I was fully dilated. I was an 8 or 9 so she told me not to push unless it was overwhelming. I stood by the bed and it was overwhelming. I pushed 3 times, which to me seemed like one long painful push, and baby was out. I immediately grabbed and looked at what we had. It was a girl! I was so sure we were having another boy- very awesome surprise. I was so relieved to be done and I had done it again with pitocin and mag sulfate and no drugs- that stuff sucks!!! I was so close to getting an epidural which could have added who knows what kinds of complications. I am so thankful to Heavenly Father for carrying me through that...especially for the guardian angels I know he sent. I know my sister was right next to me. Later as I was alone with the baby, thinking of my sister and talking to her the name Kilmeny came to mind. Both my sister and I loved the name. It was a character in an LM Montgomery book. Yang wanted her niece to have it. So, even though it's a mouthful for such a tiny little girl I'm sure she'll grow into it.