After I found out my sister had cancer I prayed and fasted like I had not prayed and fasted before. I remember after breaking my fast feeling one of the most peaceful feelings in my life and I knew everything was going to be okay. While I was pregnant with Ezra I had many blessings and prayed for peace and comfort- although anxious I knew things would turn out okay. In my mind things didn't turn out okay- my sister passed away 9 months after her diagnosis, Ezra was not able to be born at home and after he was born my blood pressure stayed extremely high and I was in the hospital for a week. After Jeebs lost his job 2 years ago- I felt peaceful again. Jeebs had an offer on the table and I thought all was taken care of. Jeebs, on the other hand, did not feel good about taking the job. I couldn't believe it- you have no job, you have a job offer, you take the job, right? I trusted Jeebs and we were blessed beyond measure. He was able to do plenty of contract work to make ends meet and then some. After he waited it out- did some contract work for this same company- the job offer increased enough to cover the expense of our health insurance. That, in my mind, was a good outcome. But after thinking about all of my life experiences I have come to realize the peace comes from knowing that Heavenly Father is in control and is aware of you. His outcomes are the right outcomes. I just have to keep repeating it and repeating it in my mind. Courage. Courage. The gospel is great, isn't it?
PS Happy Birthday tomorrow Gert! I'll be thinking of you all day
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Very insightful, gee. As hard as it is to abide by the Lord's decisions sometimes, it is EVERYTHING to me to know that things will be all right in the end. Just because our prayers aren't answered in the way we want, it doesn't mean that the Gospel isn't true, or that the Lord doesn't care about us or about the person we're praying about, or WHATEVER. "Thine afflictions shall be but for a small moment, and then, if thou endure it well.............." The Son of God descended below all of these, art thou greater than He?" I'm sure I didn't quote that entirely correctly, but you get my drift. Those scriptures have gotten me through a lot of bad, sad, rotten, seemingly unfair things.
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